Emotional RollerCoaster!

Hi Blog readers,

Today when I woke up this morning the sun was shining. I knew I was going to do the nearly three miler with Smarty Pants today! After having a rest day yesterday, (I didn't even jump, bump or grind in my kitchen, to any wickid toonz) I was physically prepared for it if not mentally.

I had brekkie of a yogurt and banana, didn't have a cuppa of tea, didn't want to much sloshing going on. I did some warm ups, stretches, running up and down the stairs for shoes, jog pants, tops, and hairband. Why I didn't look in the tumble dryer in the first place I don't know!

So now I'm set, waiting for Smarty Pants to arrive, IPOD ready, keys, water, bumbag, tissues. 09:15 Smarty Pants knocking on the door 'Morning, So are you going to do the long run today' She says with a smile. She looked well pleased when I said I was.

So, we start. Stopwatches set, IPODS in and off we go.

Now the emotional roller coaster begins. The Low Bit This is the beginning. You're looking at the road ahead, knowing that you still got nearly 3 miles to cover! The breathing is not settled yet and you just know this bit has a slight incline. The RisingYou Can see the top of the hill, you know from there its down hill, A Sudden Dip Trying to keep up with Smarty Pants has taken its toll, and I just slowed to a walking pace before I get there, Quick slug of water, back going up Up Up UP Yes now running down hill, oh why did I walk from there, my friend saw me walking tut. This is just so great, feeling good now, seem to be covering a lot of ground on the down hill. Don't think about where I am now, because that wont help right now.

All round the route this is how I was thinking. Pushing myself, trying to glimpse Smarty Pants was impossible now, she is not even a dot on the horizon!

But coming up to the first turn, blinkers on, look at the floor, oh and don't forget to check for traffic! And the next turnoff, I am not even looking, just stay focused look ahead, always ahead! Oh too late. I can see the road that I shall be jogging on in a few minutes, or half an hour, or how ever long it takes me to do this loop!

Its hard going, I know the turning is by the roundabout, but right now, I cant remember what it looks like, or how far it is ahead. Beginning to swear at myself again now. And Smarty Pants, an Nagging sister, and anybody else who told me to push myself, go further, jog for longer!! ARGGGGGhhh!

At last I get to the turn off, elation kicks in after the anger. Yes I got here, have some of that Smarty Pants Whoo Hoo. But still, long way from home, back down again, but at least I'm looking in the right direction, back up again, its not such a long road, going up still, and its UP HILL Crashing down! Flipping heck. Water comes out, and I walk. Can't run the hill today, no not today.

Getting to the park was another high. It just feels so near home now, and the high kicks in, I love it when I can catch my breath and carry on running. Through the park and looking down, down the long long road to my turn off, to my house, to my sofa. emotions dropping down into my mizuno trainers and oozing out.

Why, am I doing? Why the flipping Nora am I punishing myself like this? Nickleback is singing to me 'I wanna be a rock star' demanding, big tubs for ten, and jet planes! Why am I doing this?

All of a sudden, a picture of my mum comes in my head. The tears come with it, can't stop the tears, they are blurring my vision of the long road ahead of me. A picture of my mum that's keeping me jogging, keeping me moving. Its all worth it.

I get back to my house, dive into my bra to drag out my phone and check the time.

I am astounded! Not 45 minutes as I though, not even 40 minutes, AND not even 35 minutes........... Ok so! its still under 35 minutes. 34:47:82 YEAH YEAH YEAH BABY!!!

Smarty Pants......26:42 (but don't forget she is ten years younger than me)